I’m taking the plunge…welcome to my world

I have written and rewritten this post over and over again…trying to find the perfect words or perfect thing to say. And then I realized it doesn’t have to be perfect, I just need to write.

I married my college sweetheart…we’ve been together for half our lives…Wow! It’s still crazy to comprehend…it doesn’t feel that long. We have four creative, spunky, and unique kids–two boys and two girls. Our oldest is 21 years old and our youngest is 5 years old. I homeschool the youngest three. When I first started homeschooling, I knew it was what I meant to do…I knew it was what God me to do. Now, I’m not saying it’s all sunshine and rainbows. We have our hard days–more as of late. But in the end, its worth it. We only get our kids for 18 summers and I want to make the most of those 18 summers. I want to soak up as much time as I can.

Years ago, when w were only two kids in, I blogged all the time. I had a relatively successful blog. And then my mom got sick and I lost my ability to write. I thought if I could write through her cancer it would help me, but I couldn’t write. The words wouldn’t come. And someone who is obsessed with words…I have them all over my house…it was startling. Words are my life and for once, I had words…no words to process what I was going through. I became mute. After my mom passed away, I tried to find my voice, but no mater how hard I tried, the words still would not come. Even the eulogy I wrote for her, it was not my voice.

Today marks six years since I lost my mom and I have finally found my voice again….it may not be like it used to be, but that’s ok. It’s a whisper right now, but the more I write, the more it will come back to me. It’s a bit ironic to say that because I am a writer (I don’t get paid much), but I have been writing for my local paper for the last two years. Writing there has slowly, but surely helped me find my voice again. And so, here I am, taking the plunge once again. Thanks for following along…welcome to my world.